I blogged about this way back when, on Looking for Sam....about all the things that had to happen in order for you to meet your child. Things that are so out of your control that you just have to throw your hands up and know that there is a reason for everything. You have to BELIEVE. My reason for believing is this sweet little bundle of wonderful and her name is Stella.
Friday, June 18, 2010
through a series of unfortunate events.....
Wow...it's been an amazing couple of weeks. Through a series of unfortunate events...I met my sweet Stella Sabrina. I don't know how all these little things went wrong but in all those things came little Stella. I met Stella on June 9th and we started the bonding process the next day. Because the Chief doctor was on vacation, we were waiting to confirm with her the procedures of visiting Stella. Little things like bringing diapers for her, the best times to visit and we were also waiting to get the official medical issues and history on Stella. On Friday, we come to find out that sweet little Stella is not available for bonding!!!!!What?? Everything screeched to a halt! I was holding her as they told me, I started to cry and that sweet little girl started to cry with me...talk about my heart breaking on so many levels. Seems we had several stories on when exactly it was that she had arrived at the baby house...the last being in January 2010 which put her 6 months up in July. So on Monday the Chief doctor was back in, we met with her and went over the official records. She said that it was a mistake that I had started the process with Stella and that I could not continue to see her until she was off the registry. (in other words...I should never have met Stella in the first place) Staying in Kaz was not an option. We quickly gathered medications that Stella would need for the month and I went back to the hotel and gathered my belongings and left the next morning.
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Lisa - i am so glad to see something from you - this is so tough - but I think you are seeing light at the end of this long tunnel.. yay for you and Stella - when do you go back?
ReplyDeletewow lisa...i knew there were things going on but didn't realize that you weren't even able to complete the bonding process....so you are back in texas? what happens now? will you be able to go back in july to restart the bonding process with stella? i pray that everything goes smoothly. july will be here soon, hang in there lisa.
ReplyDeletethinking about you and stella...
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My heart is breaking for you. This process is soooooo hard. We all just want to be mothers and a family. I will send special thoughts and prayers your way until you are able to see your Stella again.
ReplyDeleteLisa, call me crazy, but this post actually made me so happy for you! You met Stella when you weren't officially "supposed to" (although we all know that the one who's really in charge decides what is "supposed to" happen, which is why you were where you were when you were.) You have met your little girl, so now you can get the house ready for her, and then go back in a few weeks to spend some real time with her. She is yours, you know this. Now you are not just waiting, you are waiting for Stella...and she is SO worth waiting for :)
ReplyDeleteWell Lisa--this just proves that you are exactly where you are supposed to be when you are supposed to be--someone else is in charge and lined up everything just so you could meet Stella. Can't wait until you can bring your daughter home--isn't it wonderful to say "your daughter"?
ReplyDeleteLisa, I know that this all happened so that you would meet Stella, whom you otherwise not have met. I am so excited for you to go back to officially start your bonding. Chin up, my friend. Time to get the house ready for A GIRL!!! <3
ReplyDeleteKeep believing!! Man, this is hard. My heart is both heavy and happy for you at the same time. July is around the corner. And so is Stella :) Hugs, love & prayers.
ReplyDeleteLife is always interesting when we simply turn it over to a Higher Powers. He is in charge anyway so you might as well give up planning anything. Clearly Stella is YOUR child and in a few weeks you'll be back together again. Like Mary said, now you get to prepare for your baby girl. Isn't it wonderful setting up the room for Stella! You know her face and smile and laugh so now you can make the room for her.
ReplyDeleteLife is good even if you aren't with her today. Soon!!
Lou Ann & Lexie too
Wishing I could reach through the computer and give you a hug. Stay strong, keep your eyes on the prize. July will be here in no time and Stella will be in your arms. What size is she in right now? Want clothes?
ReplyDeleteLisa, just wanted you to know we are still out here, cheering you along!! We will be shouting support and keeping you in our thoughts until Stella is home with you (and then we will just be basking in joy at the mountains of photos you post to FB!) What a journey, girl. What a journey.
ReplyDeleteAfter all you've been through, I was really praying for a smooth finish on your process. What bumps in the road! This is such a stressful time but you have come so far already! May the rest of your journey be smooth sailing and before you know it, you'll be shopping for a little Halloween costume,getting ready for Christmas, all that great stuff is right around the corner.
ReplyDelete-Andrea M.