the wings of change.....

I got a message a few days ago that when the team said 2 weeks (delayed) they really only meant 1 week! Looks like I will be leaving here on June 2 and arrive on June 4. Baby house visit on May 7th!!!!!!

A few changes that I know about are that I will probably be at a hotel now and there is another single with another agency, same team, that will be there with me. That will be nice. I wish I knew who it was ahead of time but really...I am traveling blind!

Wanted to share with you again my dream...way back...about the time I started this journey and I just looked over some of my old posts .....2007!!...really chokes me up....what was I thinking? Thank goodness for my friends and those that kept me going!

TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 20, 2007

Lucky fortune cookie

Since I started seriously working forward on my adoption, I have had several people say" Oh, I see you with a girl, not a boy". I have thought long and hard about this. There are reasons for both but in the end I just keep coming back to Boy. Yesterday, my niece Paige and I had a wonderful lunch at P.F. Changs. My fortune cookie said "Son" on one side with the Chinese spelling. The other side said, "Do not give up; the beginning is always the hardest".

WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 24, 2007

The name Sam

Around April of this year, I had a wonderful dream. I was in a hallway with my florida cousins, there was a guide with us. I asked (my) the guide where we were. He said "This is the hallway of things that have not yet happened". I saw that there were doorways in this hall with many things in them. I asked the guide if one of the doorways was for me. He pointed up ahead. There was a door with a sort of half pink tulip on it. I walked into the room and against the wall were 3 white baby cribs. In the center crib there was a baby blue blanket on it and inside were spiderman toys. I stepped back and there was a name on the crib and it said....Lisa and Sam Schultz. I first thought, Is Sam my future husband's name? Then I thought NO! That's the name of my baby! I woke up saying Sam Schultz, Sammy Schultz!! (Sam was the name of my Mother's only brother who we all loved dearly)

no no no

Sorry for the dramatics on FB last night. I got news from my agency that since I was delayed, they started up with two families and won't be finished with them until June. My new travel date it somewhere around June 9. It just hit me like someone sucker punched me in the gut. It's not the worse news in the world but it just felt like it last night.

As far as I know the little guy is still available and all is well there. Time will tell.

Yes, yes, yes!

Today was a very good day! Today my courier, with paperwork in hand, got in line and stayed in line. My visa is being processed! They say it will be ready on Tuesday and I am having them overnight, am delivery with Fedex. Should all get to me on Wednesday May 26, I will leave here Wednesday afternoon. Sooooo, I should arrive in Kazakhstan on Friday May 28th!!!!!

I called my Mom today in tears...I am so excited and so scared. My life will never be the same and I so welcome the change. I have tears for my boy. Will he know me? Will he love me? I already love him so much. He's my boy. As my niece Ashley would say...Love, love.

Soup Nazi

I woke up this morning excited and hopeful! I heard yesterday from my agency that my number LOI number is actually there in the Kaz embassy system! YAY!! Finally! So I send my courier a message to be sure and go back again today...I call him and he said call back...we are in line to get the visa processed. As the courier is in line (45 min.) the Ambassador walks through and says "There are too many people in line to get visas today...everyone get out"!!! What?? No way!! What??? Are you kidding me??!! Am I on a Seinfield episode?? Where are the cameras??

That poor little guy in Kaz...wonder if they told him about me? Wonder if he knows just how much I want to be there with him?

So tomorrow is a new day.......

waiting is so hard

Hi everyone. I am still home, still waiting on my visa to come thru. I sent my passport in on May 3, May 4th my LOI number came thru and since the 6th the courier service has been going up to the embassy every day, that it is open, and are turned away everyday because my LOI number nor I, am in the system. My agency has checked on the other end (Kaz) and they say it was sent. Still I wait.

I don't even know what to do with myself....you would think a month long vacation would be nice. (I can't work without my passport) But I have way too much time on my hands to sit and think and worry.

That's all for now.

okay okay...I am updating!

I think I was told on FB to update so here goes.....I have had a rough couple of days. So you know about the Holiday last week and that the Embassy is closed on Wednesdays. So the next day (Thursday) they take my paperwork into the Embassy and they say that the MFA in Kaz hasn't sent over my official LOI. Meaning they can't start the process. When they do start the process, it will take at least 3 days. My agency has emailed the team to let them know...no word yet. If the LOI is sent by tomorrow then there is a possibility that I may still be able to travel on Tuesday or Wednesday. Since we haven't heard anything from the team...who knows when it will happen. I am stressing too because the flights are looking bad, negative numbers, towards the end of the week. Meaning that I can still go but may have to ride jump seat the whole way to Amsterdam and can only hope that I will get on the KLM flight to Almaty.

I was so trying not to be Negative Nelly but it just hurts my heart. I am at 2 years and 10 months and I just want to go and meet my child. My sweet Mom brought me over a rose yesterday. After I came over to her house crying because of all this and on the way I hit a poor innocent squirrel. I just feel sad. Thanks you guys...you have really done a great job with your support. I just need you a bit longer to be my cheerleaders. It's going to happen, isn't it??

Roller coaster ride

Hey guys, little change of plans today...I got my LOI at around 11:30 this afternoon, YAY...the Embassy closed at noon and Monday is May Day, a holiday! This means that Best case I would get my visa and passport back on May 8. So new plans are I will leave on Sunday, May 9 to arrive in Kazakhstan on May 11. Just one day late. It's doable and I will have a great crew on my Continental flight!

Scrambling today to pull money from here and there....steal from Peter to give to Paul or something like that. They found an apartment for me to stay in but it requires cash which I hadn't planned on. In the long run it will be less expensive and I can eat in more often. I had hoped to be able to buy little gifts for every birthday but may have to forgo that to eat. Ha ha, guess I will manage. Oh and I found some sweet leather make up bags that I ordered online, now I can just put one item from Bath and Body Works inside instead of taking so much heavy liquid.

I am so excited to have my new life and new adventure begin! Can you imagine...in just 9 days I will actually meet the child that will be my son or daughter? I can't even describe how that makes me feel. The child that has always been meant to be mine I will be meeting very soon. It's in the stars, I am sure of it now!