what a day....

What a crazy couple of days! Fall is in the air and it has been nice and a bit cool at times. My sister hired me yesterday to do some fall decorating shopping for her...fun! It's always nice to spend someone elses money. This morning I went over to put everything together...pumpkins, gordes....wreaths. I realized I had forgotten a pot at my house just a mile away. Jumped in my car and went around the corner only to hear...thump thump....I had forgotten to close my back hatch! Ha ha.....3 pumpkins were rolling down the country road! I managed to save two out of three....and just for effect...I had to leave the one. Now I know how that happens. It's usually watermelons I see on the sides of roads! LOl!

After being over at my sister's house and decorating I decided to go home and get lunch....as I have been doing for months...I checked my email for anything from Erin. It was titled "Good News"!!!! I am going back to Kaz to get my little sweet pumpkin!! Stella's passport should be ready and I have appointments lined up for the International clinic and our exit interview for October 18th and 20th!! We should be home on October 23!!!!!! I can hardly believe it. It is really happening! the longest I had gone without seeing Stella since June was about 20 days....this time seemed so much longer, it's been about 43 days so far. You start to think that it was a dream and that it was never really going to happen. It is and I am going back to get my baby girl!

just thinking out loud......

Yesterday was Miss Stella's 15 month mark...I met her at 11 months so 4 since I met my little lamb. I wish that I was with her. I miss our time and can't wait to start our full time life together. I have that weird feeling in my stomach right now...not sure what it means. Originally I'd be on my way to Kazakhstan around October 1, just 10 days from now. With the passport slow down I am just not sure when I will go. I was lucky enough to get a double entry visa but it expires on October 12. I am thinking about a couple things to do:

1. renew my visa in DC now so that I won't be scrambling last minute

2. Go now for a visit, come home then back again

3. Stop in AMS on the way to renew my visa and head on over to Kaz and take custody and wait it out

Does anyone have any ideas or suggestions? Beth who, was with the same team, I met in June, is there now finishing up with her little one, it took her 8.5 weeks to go back and the couple before just 6 weeks. So it does look like it will take longer. Who knows? 8.5 weeks puts me there around October 18 but my visa will be expired by then....then there is a big party that my family and friends are having for Stella on October 29. What to do???

In the mean time I have been dolling up Stella's room......do you remember my dream about the baby bed and spiderman toys? Miss Becki remembered and I got the sweetest gift in the mail last week! Love love it!!!

my name is Lisa.....

Hi, my name is Lisa....I visit this blog often just to get a glimpse of this sweet little star Stella. I can not get enough. I dream of the day that I can whisk her away on a multi colored rainbow to a land that exists of milk and honey...of green grass to roll on, of puppies and kitties to play with, of endless treasures to discover, of love that is never, never ending. I yearn for my life with Stella. My family who didn't exactly understand what I was thinking, asks daily..."now when can you go back and bring her home? She needs to be home....it's time...."

It is time...I have dreamed of this child since I was in my 20's or was it earlier? This child that is not of my loins but of my heart. My heart is bursting to kiss those chubby cheeks and to see that smile explode on her face! I need to be with her.....I wish to go take her away today....is she being shown affection at all...God I pray so. I know that her needs are being met, she is well cared for and well fed....but love......does she know what that is yet? Does she miss the lady that would take her to play, with more toys and attention that she has ever known? Does she miss the attention and the kisses? I miss it all. My heart is with Stella and it always will be.....I miss my girl. God bless my girl and keep her safe. God speed little one.....I am saying this with all my heart...please hear me.....please let her know that I love her and that even though I have left her 3 times already, that I will never, ever leave her again. Love you Miss Stella.......Mama is trying to get back to you....very soon.........................